If I wrote this blog a couple years ago, it would be depressing. I used to get really sad and feel "left out" when I was surrounded with friends getting married or have kids...esp if they were friends around my age. The green eyed monster would take over my heart and I'd instantly want to settle for any man who crossed my path. If that didn't happen right away, I'd get carried away with the thought that God was just unfair and must've hated me! Wow...I was a bitter person.
Now the test.... in the Life Teen office, four women are getting married this year. I've been helping Sydney (one of my best friends) get things ready for her wedding. My aunt (more like my sister) is now 'trying' for another baby. Just last night, I found out that Eric (my 'brother from another mother') is engaged to his girlfriend, my friend, Jeanette.
Normally I'd think God was hoarding all the goodness from me. This time something's different. Now my heart is SO full of joy! I don't think I've ever been this happy for other people's blessings. That doesn't mean I've not thought about "my turn", believe me, I have. But right now I'm content. Not even content. My heart is captivated. I want to get married, sure. But my soul is so preoccupied with how awesome our God is and how He loves me like CRAZY! I pray that when "my turn" has arrived, I'll not forget this feeling.
*BTW...Congratulations to everyone I mentioned. I am absolutely, genuinely overjoyed for you!*
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Eric and Jeanette are engaged?!?! (You DO mean the Eric I'm thinnking of, right?) Anyways...I found you!!! I miss you, my ears miss you and my heart misses you!
yes! crazy, huh!? i'm happy for them though. finally...happiness for Mr. Eric. And I MISS YOU TOO!!! i miss our wonderful conversations! I hope all is well!
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